Would It?

If I told you the truth

            Would you still love me?

If I told you the lies

            Would your hugs still be the same?

My mind wonders, I know

            But doesn’t your heart falter?

Do I keep things from you?

            I most certainly do

But…

            What difference does it make?

If I keep things from you it’s because I love you

            And the truth never reaches your ears because you block it out

The lies are all you hear, they’re all you seem to understand evermore

            The end is near, so they say

They say that a window opens when a door closes

            Well…not anymore

I’m making sure all my windows and doors are locked because you’re worthless

            You shouldn’t have ever been in my life

I see that now, I realize it

            And now I thank you for leaving

For breaking my heart

            Because now someone else can mend it and take your place

Someone that will cherish me and never shatter me like you did.

I'm Sorry

I’m sorry for every time I have ever hurt you.

I’m sorry for being there in the end after all the hurt.

But, first let me explain.

I have always found comfort in you, comfort in your arms and comfort in your kisses.

Comfort in your words and in your eyes.

You see, I take comfort in the full essence of you!

I take comfort in the past of what we had with every single one of those memories; each memory a warming thought.

So now, I hope you truly understand that I really, really do love you.

I don’t want you to hurt anymore.

I want you to be happy at my cost.

I’m sorry for making you love me.

I’m sorry for being in your life.